CONFIDANT

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It is a realization for me, that I have come to a point in my spiritual walk, where there is a thrust for a real spiritually grounded authentic friendship in my life. It is truly a must have! There are moments in my life, that I need a woman of God to talk to, who is authentic, transparent and has a good spiritual compass. A woman, who bases her decisions on the principals of God, not logic and the flesh. A real woman of God, with a  spiritual compass that understands the supernatural. A woman, who is not insecure , loves God and her life. 

I have also realized, in the last couple of months, that every friendship serves it's purpose. Sometimes, the co worker sitting next to you, can bring awareness to your character on a consistence bases, verses the saint sitting next you at church. The person who has not stepped in church for 2 decades, can bring awareness to an character flaw, that your Christian friend has never brought to your attention. So, it is evident , that both friendships are needed in my life.  

I find that regardless if you are saved, go to church, do not go to church. Perfection is not a requirement, but being authentic is a requirement in my life. My spirit automatically detects lack of realness. Unfortunately, because of my experience in living an unauthentic life. I detect deceptiveness, immediately. It pains me, when you genuinely want to built a relationship with someone and you cannot because there is a wall built with lies. 

Last week, I found myself down, because I was yearning for that one confidant, to release my burdens and not one person was in sight. Then , I realized sometimes, there is nobody to call because Jesus wants you to call on him, read his word and rely on him. And, I must say, even though, there was pain in my heart, tears down my face. That talk I had with God, brought me so much clarity. God made it very clear to me, why I was in this certain season in my life. I MEAN , HE MADE IT SUPER CLEAR. 

Then of course , here comes Heather Lindsey, once again with words of wisdom. She put a picture of her son, taking swimming lessons and her hiding around the corner , so her son can focus on this lessons as he was crying. And she puts in her post. That God, will never put us in a situation to harm us, he loves us, sometimes he just needs to stand back and watch, as we built our spiritual muscles. This is not verbatim what she said, but this is the message I got. Just repeating, these words, is bringing tears down my face, because, I felt so heavily burden at that time, that word really released my pain , anxiety and confusion. 

That one confidant will come, when God sees fit. He is standing there watching me , as I grow. Isolation seems to be the theme for this season, reading the word and spending time with God.  Meanwhile, I have my arms in the air, tears flowing down my face saying, father send me a confidant. And he said, not now my child, I need you to trust me and seek me first. 

Imperfect Christians Rock 

Chantale Chan

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